I learnt that emotions can be channeled in to actions, strengthening, destroying, creating, depleting. All these actions can be created with the correct emotion, right situation and precise contexts. But its not an easy task to find such emotions, much less control them. Sports people use these techniques to run long distance running and create bursts of energy. The taste of victory, the anger of losing, the fear of defeat are all emotions that are able to be controlled and channeled to bring out what cannot be done easily.
What I feel for Rain I do not know. Do I feel angry? Dissapointed? Sad? I don't know. All I know I turn my head everytime anyone says something the word 'Rain'? Why is it that I'm addicted to the song 'Rain' by Hillary Duff? Can I channel that emotion to power? I would if I could. I'm trying my level best to do it. But why when I tried to throw the shotputt, thinking that if I channeled anger to Rain, I would throw further, and I failed miserably? Why when I channeled sadess into stillness, I only fell in to a fit of rage with myself? Why did I pick up the sheets of piano scores and the guitar from the floor, just to find myself learning it, awaiting the day I would see her again? Why did I put my foot on the treadmill, finding that it was practically effortless to run for thirty minutes without stoping whilst listening to only one song - 'Rain' by Hillary Duff?
Shaine. You may think that no one understands you. I do for one. But I don't care to sympathize with you. You had your share of fun. You had the taste of the cake you always wanted. You had a mellow high period. Not long. But long enough.
I was THIS close to Rain. THIS CLOSE. The first taste of estacy. Maybe I didn't taste it right. But I have been longing after it ever since. Emotional and spiritual damage over what I can normally face, I've been left in a broken fairy tale for 2 years. ITS TWO BLOODY YEARS. Time wasted? Yes. Regret? No. Why? cause I've been thinking of her for the past two years. 17th October 2004. Rain, all I have left to say is : I'm still waiting for you.
What I feel for Rain I do not know. Do I feel angry? Dissapointed? Sad? I don't know. All I know I turn my head everytime anyone says something the word 'Rain'? Why is it that I'm addicted to the song 'Rain' by Hillary Duff? Can I channel that emotion to power? I would if I could. I'm trying my level best to do it. But why when I tried to throw the shotputt, thinking that if I channeled anger to Rain, I would throw further, and I failed miserably? Why when I channeled sadess into stillness, I only fell in to a fit of rage with myself? Why did I pick up the sheets of piano scores and the guitar from the floor, just to find myself learning it, awaiting the day I would see her again? Why did I put my foot on the treadmill, finding that it was practically effortless to run for thirty minutes without stoping whilst listening to only one song - 'Rain' by Hillary Duff?
Shaine. You may think that no one understands you. I do for one. But I don't care to sympathize with you. You had your share of fun. You had the taste of the cake you always wanted. You had a mellow high period. Not long. But long enough.
I was THIS close to Rain. THIS CLOSE. The first taste of estacy. Maybe I didn't taste it right. But I have been longing after it ever since. Emotional and spiritual damage over what I can normally face, I've been left in a broken fairy tale for 2 years. ITS TWO BLOODY YEARS. Time wasted? Yes. Regret? No. Why? cause I've been thinking of her for the past two years. 17th October 2004. Rain, all I have left to say is : I'm still waiting for you.
"Coz' you know that I'll walk a thousad miles, if I could just see you, If I could just hold you. Tonight." - Thousand Miles - Vanessa Carlton
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