Random Thoughts, Random Emotions.

I just came back from a wake. Auntie Sandra Chong's Father passed away on his ninetieth year of life. Fortunately he gave his life to Christ 3 years ago, and he has been happy ever since. He was a medium all his life. Somehow. I feel that he's lived a happier, more fulfilling life than me.

I'm far from perfect. I'm so bad you'd not want to make friends with me if you know me for more than a week. They say we all are the same creation of God. We're loved equally by God. Then why are some people just better than others? Better looking, better character, better figure, better brains, better strength. Its not fair.

I realised that I get jealous very very easily. I saw Am talking with another guy, training with him. I got really jealous. I didn't want her to socialise with any other guy. Even though it was just a game. Did I care that much? No. Still. I got jealous.

While worship, Chloe cried. Everyone knew she was having a private conversation with God. I saw how she was touched by God. Even then, I was jealous. Why not me and why her? I was terribly jealous.

Work has been hectic. Everyone's treating me like dirt. The seniors are bitching about me behind my back as I try hard to accommodate creativity into customer service. Its not fair. Life's never fair. Not to me at least.

Seems like people are starting to avoid me again. Right Rain? You changed your blog. I knew it a long long time ago. I don't know why, but I'm still attracted to you. Some weird power you have. Somehow I can just fall in love with the first girl that spills her guts out to me, or just simply turn around and bite me. People included are Jasslyn, Rain, Min Hua, Evelyn. I just don't know why I fall in love so easily.

For Am. I'm sorry I haven't found the time to keep you company. Even as a Maple Boy-friend, I haven't really played my part. I suppose I should do something, but let my mind clear out, I'll do what I can for now.

Really happy that the cozy corner can turn out the way I want it to. I'll be nice for a change. I'll spend my time at the cozy corner to do my reflections, I suppose. It'll be nice to find somewhere quiet, far from the distractions. I just want to sit in a nice corner, imagine Rain beside me, and just sitting there, waiting for the time to pass.

Did you rise the sun for me?
Paint a million stars,
That I may know your majesty? - Always - United Live