Turncoat.

Somehow. I go unnoticed. I go unscathed. I go unsighted. I go undisrupted. I go undisturbed. I go unavenged. I go forgotten. Somehow. I do not like that. And so. In view of recent events. I will have to make some changes in my life. I will close my door. I will kick the old lady crossing the street. I will close the door when the lady tries to rush in. I will burst the happy kid's balloon. I will destroy the young girl's dream. I will terminated inferior life forms. If I can't get noticed being a nice guy. I will be noticed by not being one. The difference between a mindless murderer and me? A mindless murderer feels nothing when he kill something. I, on the other hand. Will feel joy. A mindless murderer commits the murder of the body. Yet I, aim to destroy the heart and the mind. I will re-live anti-sociality. I will embody hatred. I will embrace death.

Thus, the old Nicholas is now dead. Don't be tricked by my calm and concerned appearance. Its only a facade. Its inner-self will hides its darkness. Though I cannot be who I am outside, I will live it inside. If one kills someone by thinking it. I've murdered the masses.

You can try to touch me. Yet I will not respond. You can try to reason with me. Yet to no avail. You can try to love me. Yet those who do not understand this, cannot understand love.

I'm only happy when it rains. I'm only happy when its complicated. I only listen to sad sad songs. I know you can't appreciate it. I'm only happy when it rains. - Happy When it Rains.