Captured Thought Diarrhoea

I really ought to die. Things have NOT been going well for me as of late. The first 4 weeks were excellent. Everything was going according to plan, smoothly. Then everything snapped. It felt like a fall, then a roll back downhill. It hasn't been a fun time for me.

Besides screwing up my micro-biology practical, handing in pathetic results, lacking behind in studies, and just screwing up my RWP Test just now, I feel jaded. Seriously jaded. I'm tired of acting cool, I'm tired of screwing around with my class, I feel tired. I need a break. Mr. Tang's right. The smile suddenly changes into a frown after awhile when the projects start pouring in. I miss having someone around me to share my sorrow. Its lonely after class you know?

I always have the enthusiastic feeling when ever I think I'm going to go for training. An hour before training, good feeling's gone. Jaded I tell you, the word is jaded. I think I'm lying to myself if say I don't want to go back to my old ways. I just want to seclude my alter ego inside me. I want to be the good guy this time. Its just not working for me. Somehow.

I don't mean anything I say, really. So if I called you names, insulted you. "suan-ed" you in class, or even put you in one of my self created class scandals. I hereby apologize. But this doesn't mean I'm going to stop here huh. I'm just saying I'm crapping around. This isn't a conclusion. I'm just apologizing to you guys first.

I really find blogging such a leisure nowadays. So many thoughts running through my heads. So little time to pen them down. Blogging shouldn't be writing down what you ate, where you slept, who you went out with, and other daily activities, but more importantly, your feelings and thoughts about a certain event. Blogging shouldn't be a five minute burst of feelings, but more importantly a time of self reflection.

" I think I'm going to fail Bio," Qi Ming ( Score 99.5/100 ) - Joke of the month