Under the Stars
I've undergone 4 dragon boat trainings now. We start training at 5.30pm sharp, then end some where between 8.30 to 9.30 at night. Each time we do outdoor training. I always watch the sky when I run, how beautiful it is to watch the evening sky, then to twilight, then to the pitch black of the night. Somehow, It makes training worthwhile. Besides that, its really useful in telling how much more training we have to endure before we can go back home.
I always told Cass we don't see stars in Singapore because of the amount of light pollution from the street lights that we have. Scratch that. I saw the stars, 3 times at that. ( We were having gym training one time, so I couldn't see the sky. ) Well, I hope she doesn't care now. I fully am aware that I deserve it. I wish I could turn back the hands of time. I so wish I could.
Rain, its your birthday today. The model of your present is in my mind. The sad part is that I still don't have the guts to take it up to you. Such a loser ain't I. You mentioned sometimes you read my blog. Well, to tell you the truth. I was really happy that you did. Given our current circumstances, its will be as hard as asking Cass to forgive me. Freeze that moment when I had you. That dream shattered, everything went downhill after that. I'm still trying to pick the pieces. Wouldn't I want to stop time at that moment?
Xin Hui. I can assure you that you don't read my blog. Its been exactly a week since you last sent me an sms. Haha. You're only 13. You probably aren't even thinking straight yet. Since you're still young, let me tell you something about lovers. Lets start with lovers need each other. Like food for the heart, you can't live without it. A friend says, "If you ever need anything, I'll be there." A Lover says, "You'll never need anything, I'll be there." How much can I say either of us as tried or accomplished that. Its not going to work out. Thats what I can tell you. If you still can't understand, it means I want a breakup.
But Fuck you Nick. Who the hell do you think you are? Love doctor? You're a piece of god damned Fucking Trash until I say otherwise. Its not like you're in some type of successful relationship. So stop acting like you're good. Because you just aren't good enough.
I always told Cass we don't see stars in Singapore because of the amount of light pollution from the street lights that we have. Scratch that. I saw the stars, 3 times at that. ( We were having gym training one time, so I couldn't see the sky. ) Well, I hope she doesn't care now. I fully am aware that I deserve it. I wish I could turn back the hands of time. I so wish I could.
Rain, its your birthday today. The model of your present is in my mind. The sad part is that I still don't have the guts to take it up to you. Such a loser ain't I. You mentioned sometimes you read my blog. Well, to tell you the truth. I was really happy that you did. Given our current circumstances, its will be as hard as asking Cass to forgive me. Freeze that moment when I had you. That dream shattered, everything went downhill after that. I'm still trying to pick the pieces. Wouldn't I want to stop time at that moment?
Xin Hui. I can assure you that you don't read my blog. Its been exactly a week since you last sent me an sms. Haha. You're only 13. You probably aren't even thinking straight yet. Since you're still young, let me tell you something about lovers. Lets start with lovers need each other. Like food for the heart, you can't live without it. A friend says, "If you ever need anything, I'll be there." A Lover says, "You'll never need anything, I'll be there." How much can I say either of us as tried or accomplished that. Its not going to work out. Thats what I can tell you. If you still can't understand, it means I want a breakup.
But Fuck you Nick. Who the hell do you think you are? Love doctor? You're a piece of god damned Fucking Trash until I say otherwise. Its not like you're in some type of successful relationship. So stop acting like you're good. Because you just aren't good enough.
"SP~ Dragons~! One~ Stroke~! One~ Heart~! SP~ Hoo-ya~!!" - SP Dragon Boat cheer
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A friend’s love tell’s us:
"If you ever need anything,
I’ll be there."
True love tells us:
"You’ll never need anything;
I’ll be there."
I wrote that quote/poem (I’ve never quite known what to call it) in a letter to a friend in late 2002. It wasn’t in the body of the letter, but written in the margin. Unrequited love was the theme of the letter, and I was just clarifying my thoughts. When she got the letter, Catherine mentioned how much she and her mother had liked the "thing i wrote on the side", and that I could copyright it by posting it on poetry.com. So I did, and didn’t think much of it for quite awhile. In late 2005, I entered my last name into a search engine and was suprised to return hundreds of results, "Hollemans" isn’t that common a name. When I followed the links I realized many of them were posts or personal pages containing my quote. It had apparently been a finalist for poetry.com’s monthly contest (earning honorable mention) and other people liked it. It has been really interesting to see how it has been used and spread through the web. I’ve seen it in Spanish, Portuguese, and Russian, on wedding invitations, and in prison and homosexual chat rooms. It really is a universal and simple concept, though I’ve seen those who vehemently disagree with the whole idea. I enjoy the idea that some nearly forgotten words from years ago are being quoted around the world. Thank you for helping to spread my idea, I'm really glad you like it.
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