Emotional. Emotions. Just Emo.
I just don't know how to start. Its like a cosine graph. you start high, go to the lowest point, go back to the highest. Then it just starts to drop again. Its so. Annoying. A billion thoughts are going through my mind. And I don't have the words to capture it. I need more than a friend. I need someone that I can cry on. Someone who'd be there for me. Someone who'd tell me that everything's alright. That its okay to fail.
Its probably alright if she's never mine. Sometimes I feel that if this goes on, I'd fly back to my emo self. Selfish, Self-contained. Its easy. But I try never to walk that path again. Was it so hard to give me a no? Or you just had to try and shun me. It breaks my heart when you walk away without telling anyone. It just gives me the feeling that Rain gave me. She walked away. Without saying a word. If you would. Give me some time. I'd be better than the rest. I swear. And I'd do it just for you.
Cass. Maybe if you lifted up your head and walk. Probably you'd see me often. For one. As a friend. I miss you. But if you have to have it this way, I have nothing to say. Sometimes I feel that we're like little kids, I don't friend you, you don't friend me, sort of thing. I wish it could all just end. I wish we could be like brother and sister, doing almost everything together. But I guess, its not going to happen for me.
Katherine told me this. You told Kat that you saw her poem on my blog. I don't know if its you or Ken, but I sure hope its you.
Its amazingly selfish I've become. For this struggle. I pray its a change for the better, not otherwise. Stay by my side.
The greatest irony in life is that even the best surgeon is unable to operate on himself to save his own life. Hypocritical? Nah. Ironical.
Its probably alright if she's never mine. Sometimes I feel that if this goes on, I'd fly back to my emo self. Selfish, Self-contained. Its easy. But I try never to walk that path again. Was it so hard to give me a no? Or you just had to try and shun me. It breaks my heart when you walk away without telling anyone. It just gives me the feeling that Rain gave me. She walked away. Without saying a word. If you would. Give me some time. I'd be better than the rest. I swear. And I'd do it just for you.
Cass. Maybe if you lifted up your head and walk. Probably you'd see me often. For one. As a friend. I miss you. But if you have to have it this way, I have nothing to say. Sometimes I feel that we're like little kids, I don't friend you, you don't friend me, sort of thing. I wish it could all just end. I wish we could be like brother and sister, doing almost everything together. But I guess, its not going to happen for me.
Katherine told me this. You told Kat that you saw her poem on my blog. I don't know if its you or Ken, but I sure hope its you.
Its amazingly selfish I've become. For this struggle. I pray its a change for the better, not otherwise. Stay by my side.
The greatest irony in life is that even the best surgeon is unable to operate on himself to save his own life. Hypocritical? Nah. Ironical.
Embody pain. Acknowledge its existence. Feel its presence. Then. You will fear it not. Live in pain and you will learn to tolerate it.
Embody hatred. Tell the world of hate. Tap in to the mind. Then. You will realize who hates you. And who doesn't. For it differentiates the friends from the foes.
Embody heat. For it created life. Manifest its power within you. Then. You will know what feels cold. And what fire can do to you.
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