Thinking of you.

School was kinda more relaxed today I guess. I woke up at eight. Seemingly having 2 nightmares in one night. Gosh. When will these dreams ever stop coming. I hate dreams. Unexplainable, unrealistic and undesirable. I just want a picture of you in my mind when I sleep. To me, that will be a good enough dream I guess.

School was average. CPPA was average. But I realized that I'm pretty slow when it comes to doing the math. Well, the concept of things was easy to grasp, but I hate sums. APChem was like some torture camp. Haha. Well, not exactly. Mr. Lam was like scolding me all the time. Was talking to Qi Ming and we already finished our tutorials and further questions, so Mr. Lam could only scold us for talking in class. Finishing tutorials ahead of lessons rocks. Haha. MIP was fine. Well, I guess it would be interesting if I actually applied all of it into my daily life. No fun just keeping head knowledge.

The Bleach Character, Zaraki Kenpachi, keeps swirling in my mind. By the way, he's my favorite Bleach character. What did hit me about this violent man who loves to fight was his conversations. He said that you will never be able to fight a winning battle if you never gave it your all. True strength lied beneath the reason why you were fighting. If it was fighting for someone else, for morals, for what you think, its like fighting a losing battle. Winning a battle means you must fight for yourself, for what you believe in. Zaraki Kenpachi genuinely loved fighting, and thats why he was so good at it.

Well, I have to start finding what I really love, what I truly desire, before I can win that battle. Meanwhile, I'll keep you up there, deep in my mind.

"When you are fighting, you don't think, he might get seriously injured. You say I'm going to cut him. When you protect someone, you don't think, he might die anytime. You say I'm not going to let him die." - Urahara Kisuke