I'm like supposed to write like a long long entry but I have no idea what to write at all lah. It sucks to see this and it sucks to see that. Totally nothing. I'm like super stressed out now. Got like 2 reports and 1 datasheet overdue, but none are like going to be completed soon. Reports are like so weird and disgusting. You fill them with words that you don't really wanna know, or don't really know at all. Like,"Wow". I really really really hate reports and I hope I don't have to do them when I g0 to Shanghai. I'm rather not looking forward to taking care of myself there. I don't know why. It just seems apparent that its rather tedious looking after myelf. Like duh. I don't wanna wash my clothes, I don't wanna wake up at 6 in the morning, I don't wanna do housework. I just wanna play play play. I feel so play deprived, even though I'm like seem playing 99.99% of the time. I just wanna play. Schoolwork's so tiring, school's so tiring I slept in class this semester more than I ever slept in class in my whole life of schooling. I don't know whats happing. I'm feeling more tired, more stressed, more sleepy, more emo, more angry, more angsty. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I tried to be nice but everytime I'm nice people take advantage of it, only when I'm nice, and then I get angry again. I tried to run but my joints hurt everytime I start to run. I tried to diet but I just eat and eat and eat and eat. Rahh. I want to die la. Just yesterday dearest treat me to Marche and I was broke and dear treated me and I felt so bad. I didn't wanna eat anything. The food was so good but the price of the food was like 5 dollars for one bowl of soup. That sucks! and The rest of my stuff and shit and the bill for the both of us was like 50 dollars and I was like so in a bad mood. Then Germaine had to borrow money from us because she ate rib-eye and sausage and soup and drink and she entered with no money from the beginning. Charm was like so pissed with her la can? Every one had to chip in money for her. And I gave the last 10 dollars I had for the rest of my 5 days to her. Now I have zero dollar zero cents in my wallet. Zero dollar zero cents. And Germaine has 2 dollars, and her allowance. I have none. Good also. Can starve, lose some fats. I was still thinking that I could like send dearest home then cab home with the rest of my money plus some borrowed from dearest. But I had to go home because I couldn't send her home with no money. That totally sucks la. At least uncle fetched her home. I went home and had like totally no mood until today I got sugar rush from the Candele stuff that I don't know who bought. At least I could zone today, which was good. But people are getting real substandard these days. I wish I had equipment like them. Then that'll be fun. I'm so god-damnned poor. It must suck to be me. Big, Fat, Ugly, Poor, and like I don't know. Whatever la. School sucks so bad with poor planners. If you have 2 pictures and you can't put them at one in the middle and one at the end. Test screw people up don't you know. Don't you think this semester is a bit packed? Why didn't I go to stage A where It was so slack. The quality of work wasn't so much the people there are more fun loving. Look at this stage. Everyone's stress with your 5 exams 12 tests 5 formal report 3 case study and 2 presentation. And look at the stage B now. Its like 3 formal report and 3 presentation and 3 case study. Look at it. I want to move there where the people don't care so much at about their future. Look at my primary school friends. They're all going to army already. What about me? I don't even have money to cut my long hair. And that totally sucks. Its hot and stuffy and I waste water just to wash my hair. Am I really that poor? My nails are long. I better go cut them. Thanks mich for hearing me rant, and encouraging me every day. Feels really good to have friends like you. As I watch the world fall in to pieces In front of me, I realised that you can just move to avoid the shattering pieces falling from behind you.
I've ranted enough for one day.
I've ranted enough for one day.
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