Of Durian And Beer... At The Same Time.

Believe me when I say, you don't wanna try Durian and beer, at the same time. It sucks really bad. I had a Tiger Classic at my uncle's house, and after like and hour or so, without remembering that Durian and beer don't mix, I ate a Durian cream puff. I woke up in the middle of the night, thinking that I was going to die from the pain in my stomach. It was un-purge-able and thus, going to the toilet or vomiting didn't really help at all. Well, I just lay on my bed, and after awhile, I fell asleep. When I woke up the pain was gone, and so was my appetite. Ah well. I'm glad I'm not dead.

Well, I'm thinking of changing my blog add back to the old URL. But people might not be able to remember its name. Haha.

Small Truths. Big Lies.

I was wondering about myself, and how much I don't know about myself, and it seems that my quiz has become kinda retarded, like me too. Well, I tried very hard to feel a little uplifted today, and I turned out quite pessimistic. I guess its kinda in my nature to put people down. All the way today I felt a little better, simply because I tried to. Cool huh. Imagine cancer patients getting cured simply because they want to. Well, it happens, once in a while.

My immune systems crumbling, I'm beginning to feel it. I'm getting sick and feeling weak, having headaches, tired of all that. Not really like me to fall sick, seems that the "impregnable fortress" has a leak. Haha, shit happens. Not like me if I don't encounter shit either.

Well, I was wondering how Richard gets really long blog posts and I do short short short short short ones, compared to him, and well, he writes a whole lot of Godly stuff. I guess I'll never be able to write like him, cause God's not doing stuff right now, he's on a holiday. Hah.

Well, was going through the titration today, and the first person that came in to mind was Mrs Lee Kian Soon. The reason why I'm studying in my course today. She was never my inspiration, she was my motivation. She made Chemistry seem fun, and she always made chemistry seem easier than a lot, she spent a lot of time and love coaching us, with all the past exam papers and stuff. She never ever made us feel like we were in the bottom of the bottom class, she always put 4D there for us for a challenge. Well Thanks Mrs Lee. I'm sure all of us in that class appreciate it.

Then comes Wong Liang Seng, The Voice. Although the only teacher that carries out ALL the threats he poses, he constantly reminds me not to be complacent with what I already have. The Voice, he inspires by impression. I remember the first chemistry lesson I had. He comes in, takes out the chemistry text book, and says, "You can throw this away, because this is useless. If you listen to me in class and do my homework, you can be on the way to getting your A1. You are a very lucky class, because you have the best chemistry teacher you can get."

Well, he looks like a piggy, but is a Guru in Chemistry, often having a gigantic mix of fun and laughter well enforcing strict discipline in class. Often you see 3/4 of my class standing outside, including me, doing homework. He always groomed us in a way that we were proud of who we are, he always made fun of people, but he always commanded our respect. Every Single one of us, of course including DvD. The Guru of Chemistry, he told me,"You will know everything about Chemistry when you don't know anything about Chemistry."

Well the true reason I entered DCP was because of Teck. You could say he's my tuition teacher, but I regard him more as a friend. Well, doesn't learning become so much easier when you're friends? He often explained things in a way I could understand. In a way that I wanted to understand. Physics, Chemistry or Math, he always made away to explain the most simple things. Most teachers tell you to remember formulas. Teck would tell u why the formulas work like that and then tell you how to derive the other formulas from that one so you wouldn't have to remember so much.

Thats so many teachers that pushed me this far, its time for me to pull myself to the finish line I guess.

"Do well in poly and come to NTU to study next time so I can lim kopi with you." - Teck Guan

I miss you, Victoria,
Your Spirit and Everything in it,And all the teachers,And all the Gurus,I miss my class.

Casual Sex, Not Using Contraceptions and Compromised Blood Transfusion Spells A-I-D-S.

There's this communication barrier between you all and me, and you people will never ever understand me, whatever the case. Sad to see that I think too much. My thinking works different from all of you all, and until you understand that, you will never see whats flashing through my mind.

Just so you know, you're still on my mind.

For starters, I believe that it doesn't matter if you're in authority or not. If I have a point, I'm getting it through.

The applied electronics and electricity seems like a while bloody load of bull crap, starting with an aloof practical teacher and a pretty much boring person trying to be cool. Whatever the case, its an ICA Module, so indefinably bull crap. Gems is pretty much sad too, with more than half the class aiming for a "pass". Goodness me.

Pfft. I miss you Rain, My greatest excuse in life.

When it Rains, It Pours.

Since my blog is becoming reader-less, it doesn't matter what I do with my blog, or anything else that happens to it. If I'm lucky a pornographic website might take over like Dominic's, and at least, more people would think better of the web site.

The things that have occurred recently have made me open my eyes to one thing, I have no idea where God is. Cool huh. I just know where he is not. Not around me.

Today is a relatively ordinary day, I woke up around eight thirty, after another perfectly weird dream. Somehow, I wish I would just not have a dream, good or bad. Class started at ten, with CPPA. Pathetic teacher was seriously just boasting in class about herself, made me quite pissed off. she didn't want to teach today, and our Thursday class got canceled. I need to get my lessons done, latest by next week. Irritating.

Well, at least I got to do some study while waiting for Japanese class. Finished tutorial 3 for APC. Finishing up notes exercises too. I should start with other subjects too. Since theres no maths and physics, I had better score something worthy of being on my report card. 94 for Japanese, but irritatingly, others are starting to do better to. And I still have a report to hand up.

Well, just for you to know, you're always on my mind. It has been that way for a long long time. And It'll probably stay that way.

Nothing Left to Say.

I've nothing more to say. Everything that has to be done has to be done. I'm so blinded by the crooked ethics of the world, that I can't even see where I'm stepping on. Every one of those television serials, all those dramas, all those stories, they tell you that true loves waits. They tell you that true loves never fails, that they will always, god-damned, live happily ever. I swear, I god-damn swear, that I'll protect you, whatever the circumstances, whatever I have to do, what I have to sacrifice, I will. I swear, I god-damn swear, that I'll love you, with all that I am. I'll care, like I never did before. I'll never dare to say it to you in person, because at that, I'm nothing but a coward.

But even though I say all these things, and I know you have read it, it doesn't matter to you, does it?

I'm sorry I think so much. But thats the way I am. Maybe you say I'm just worrying for nothing. I hope so too.

I never wanna see you cry.

I kill myself thinking about you. I really do.