Randomness Uncalled for
Am I that proud?
Name: Nicholas
Date: 2/13/2008
Colorgenics Number: 73106524
Is it that you are working - or even playing - too hard? Because it would seem that you are experiencing a great deal of pent-up emotion at this time which could possibly take effect and lead to irrational behaviour.
Being a somewhat gentle, emotional and sensitive person, you are at this time experiencing a considerable amount of tension. What you really need is someone who can be close to you and to listen to what you have to say.
You give the impression that you are a self-sufficient individual, pretending that you are stoical - indifferent to pain or pleasure. But this is not so, for in truth you are an extremely emotional person, one that may make hasty decisions and perhaps repent at leisure. It is time now perhaps to break the bond of detachment and become the real 'you' - the you that you would like to be.
You are experiencing more than your fair share of stress following an acute disappointment. This may be the result of subconscious conflict between hope and necessity. The tension that you are experiencing following your unfulfilled hopes have given rise to anxious uncertainty. You have no doubt that things could get better in the future and so you refuse to make the necessary essential decisions. This conflict between hope and necessity is creating considerable pressure. Instead of resolving this by facing up to making the essential decisions, you are likely to vacillate and concern yourself with trivialities of little consequence.
At this time you don't particularly like yourself. Everything that you have tried to do seems to have gone wrong. This makes you feel that there is no point in trying to start again. Apart from being stressed and tense, you are angry with yourself and have unadmitted self-contempt. Your refusal to admit that you and you alone is the basic cause of your problems leads to you adopting a headstrong and defiant attitude. If you take stock of yourself, smile a little and let go, everything will turn out OK. Have you not heard of the cliche 'smile and the world smiles with you - cry and you cry alone!'?
"What's with these 'greater goals'? Are they really your goals? Didn't someone just dump them on you? Thats why I'm saying you're no good. Loyalty to someone is different from depending upon them. It isn't even interesting to fight someone who doesn't have his own goals. But you chose to come after me. Wasn't that a display of your own will? The power you gain was all in order to defeat me. The power comes from your grudge. Why not try giving all your strength to that end?" - Zaraki Kenpachi
To the Next Part of Your DreamIn the light that spills out from a gap in the clouds, that seemed so dazzlingI suddenly held my hand up over my head, my weaknesses seeming to be transparent
Just by being envious, I would always pretend to give up
But my feelings rage, so I'm again lead astray
Everyone gets frustrated
But all you can do is just move on, with your own two feet
I wander about and worry too, when I'm like that
I wonder what sort of future will have?
Destroy that interfering unease
Break it apart, with your hands that are clenched into fists
Carve in that pain, yes, dive into it
The next part of your unending dream
It looks like I've lost sight of what reality is
And whether or not the path that I choose is right or not
When I carry myself in a cheerful manner, loneliness crosses over
What sort of face is the real me making?
People can't help but be sad
Seeking something, I continue to search
Struggling like that, yet surely
You'll cut through to the future that you will have
Don't stand still, and lose your way
Somewhere, we're certainly connected
Don't run away, just quietly touch your hopes
In the next part of your unending dream
The things that that I'm desperately holding fast to
My uselessly expanding pride
And everything, at this point
I'm going to try and throw it all away
And then, try starting all over again
Everyone gets frustrated
But all you can do is just move on, with your own two feet
I wander about and worry too, when I'm like that
I wonder what sort of future will have?
Destroy that interfering unease
Break it apart, with your hands that are clenched into fists
Carve in that pain, yes, dive into it
The truth is, you believe in yourself more than that
To the next part of your unending dream