Homework

Are homosexuals not humans? Do they not bleed the same blood as we do? Do they die when you shoot a bullet at them? Why shouldn't Section 337A in Singapore's Penal Code not be repealed?

Homosexuality. Homosexuality is defined as the sexual desire or behavior directed toward a person or persons of one's own sex. It says nothing about homosexuals having disgusting habits or having incurable sickness such as AIDS or HIV.

People see gays and lesbians as Atrocities or Monstrosities. This is because most of them have never known a gay or a lesbian, have never tried to understand them. Man has always been afraid of what they didn't understand, and Singaporeans, due to the existence of the Penal code 337A, never did.

Homosexuals are different from Metro-sexuals. Although may gays are metro-sexuals, not all practice narcissism. Further more, not all gays exhibit "lady-like" behavior. People, again, generalize gays and lesbians because they probably have never known any. Most gays nowadays integrate well into society, and you can never tell them are part from an average Singaporean.

Sexual orientation begins from birth, and if code 337A were to be repealed, it would pose no threat to the up bringing of a child. Many Gay people have straight friends, I being one of them. But whatever the cause or combination of causes, sexual orientation is not something that people can decide for themselves or for others. Such, being gay is not wrong, because gays can't control it. Can you pin the blame on someone for something they couldn't control?

Yet again, the innocence of the society steps in again when they say gays are more likely to contract HIV and AIDS. This is untruth. One cannot control themselves from getting HIV. Even if you had unprotected sex with multiple sex partners, even if they are of the opposite sex, the threat of HIV and AIDS is still there. Then again, how many people know that that gay community has been promoting safe sex for many years, and that many gays nowadays use condoms while having sex?

Having Gays is like having another race in Singapore. The homosexual community is an essential element in the tapestry of peoples that make Singapore such a unique and cosmopolitan community. Many Gays in Singapore have to act like their homophobic just to continue to have friends. Axing them out of the country is just a denial of the fact that they exist. I think it is time that Singapore opened up. We cannot have Amsterdam or other countries have gay rights, because in the end, we will be the one losing out. Its the same if Singapore sends Indians and Malays back to India and Malaysia.

MM Lee also said,” Eventually I cannot put a finger on it. But I would say if this is the way the world is going and Singapore is part of that interconnected world and I think it is, then I see no option for Singapore but to be part of it.

They tell me and anyway it is probably half-true that homosexuals are creative writers, dancers, et cetera. If we want creative people, then we got to put up with their idiosyncrasies so long as they don't infect the heartland.

We are not promoters of it (homosexuality) and we are not going to allow Singapore to become the vanguard of Southeast Asia.

We would follow the world. A few respectable steps behind."

How are we as the country going to advance as a country if we cannot even allow a small group of people to stay in Singapore?

Then again we ask ourselves. Are gays not humans as well? Do they not bleed the same blood as we do? If you shoot them, will they not die? My opinion, I strongly believe that Singapore should Repeal Penal Code 337A.

"Love is a language of the heart, the blind can see it and the deaf can hear it. It is a maze, once you go in you'll never find your way out. It is like a cliff. It's easy falling over, but hard climbing back up. &Beneath the heart of stone lies a tenderness filled with loneliness, longing to be fulfilled."

Angel In Disguise - Corrinne May

I woke up this morning feeling kind of blue
and I stumbled out of bed
and dragged my feet across the room
Right outside my front door was a rose
and a note that said 'Somebody Loves You'

But out on the street it starts to pour
and before I get soaking wet,
A total stranger runs to give me
the jacket off his back

I turn around to thank him
But he waves me with a smile
I can hardly believe my eyes
He puts on a halo and starts to fly

Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look at paradise
You could be next to
an angel in disguise

I met a good friend for lunch
and we had a delicious meal
But I forgot to bring my wallet
I felt like an imbecile

But she was sweet,
she gave me a treat
and bought me a chicken sandwich
To take home for tea

But out on the street with nothing to eat
A man and his shopping cart go
Travelling to places,
Collecting social graces

I give him my sandwich
and we chatter for a while
I see a rainbow wash over his eyes
He gives me his halo and I start to fly

Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look for paradise
You could be next to an angel in disguise

Don't try to hide away from me
I know you're by my side

Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look for paradise
You could be next to
an angel in disguise
Everyday can be legendary
Every minute, an endless surprise
You could be the next angel in disguise

I woke up this morning
Feeling kind of new...

Emptiness...

Jeffery Whey talked about how people often jump to conclusions and end up making baseless accusations others. How we judge other people by just their outward actions. Then after the next example, he was telling us about how people get helped with their own problems when they help others. For once I'd like to believe. How true it is, I don't know. But I know its a chance, and I'm going to hold on to it.

Haha. So I'll go around helping everyone I can, in anyway I can possible. Faizah with her english, Samantha by staying in school to study with her, I'll bring Ying Ying Jie to Coffee Club, Chu Zen with her band. I'll help you with anything if I've the capability to. I'd like to think my problems will get solved. Then again, problems may not get solved the way you want it to be. Meanwhile, don't stop replying, because you're the one that helps me through each day. Without you, I don't think I can even survive a day.

I'd wish everyone to be happy, especially you. I don't even care now if you're with me or not. I just want you to be happy. Thanks to Si Jing and Kat for the late nights keeping me company. Really appreciate it. I'll find something to repay your kindness.

Because love was never about holding on. It was always about letting go.

I can literally feel myself going berserk. When that happens, only you can stop me.

*sigh* Its lonely without anyone to talk to.

Ben And Jerry's never tasted so bitter.

I just don't know why I questioned you last night. I guess I was quite confused. I just can't really stand these sorts of things, because I like you. I think too much I guess. I'm sorry.

Okay so I went to be a good guy and tell Far East Plaza I was going to answer her ambiguous question on my blog, so here I am, actually being the good guy and answer her question. So we were walking to business block, finishing our conversation about sports and shotputt. Then she asks me," Nick, whats the difference between the people in business and people in CLS? "

So I though, there was nothing that the great me couldn't answer. Well, I was really then jumping into conclusions about it. But then now I really have nothing to write. So, now, I guess I just write what I think, so don't take offense, business people, like my bro and Kat.

In a sense, business students count money, and one counts chemical stuff. Right? In a deeper sense, the economy always affects the value of science, but the science hardly affects the economists. Well, in the sense. The science students are usually not the one setting the trends, and the business students are hardly the ones following.

Business students and science students think on a different level. One desires to present you with the answer, and one intends to explain to you the answer. Both of them are correct, except that you give the one the one you like better marks.

They are both humans, so don't go around thinking that they're some stuck up kind of people and such. I won't comment on the physical appearances as I've only one face I can really remember right now. =)

Feel so much better after talking with you =) thanks for listening.

I don't know if I'm to be feeling heavy, or jittery right now. But I do feel uplifted. I can't tell you why. But I do feel kinda better already. Well, so much for that day off. I fell sick right after I reached home on Thursday. Unlucky me, sick for three days now. Tomorrow will be the fourth day. Haha. Everyone's finishing their exams. And I'm tearing hair out trying to solve chemistry calculations. I practically laze around the whole day, DotA, playing crappy games on B.net. Well, I have finished my tutorials. But since I'm playing now, I hope I'll get out of it when I'm supposed to.

This semester is going to hurt real bad. Gonna have lot of projects, lots of reports. I hate doing reports because my front part will be good, but my back part will be all slipshod work. I kinda hate myself doing these types of things. Pisses me off to see myself get so cheesed of over homework. Well, It's part of my character flaw I guess. I'm flawed many times over, physical, mental, spiritual. I don't even want to talk about spiritual.

Well, I got an idea to help me save up for things that I want to buy. Kinda risky and I'm going to deplete my pocket money real fast. Haha. I've plenty on my wishlist : acoustic guitar, bass guitar, bag, watch, plenty. Well. I guess they're just material stuff. I just want one thing. She knows.

ななわ世界で一番綺麗いと可愛い人です。私わ大好き！－　僕

You're still the prettiest girl I know. I hope it will forever be that way.

Lies.

I guess my emotions got a little out of hand this morning I guess. But I was feeling really really emo. Well, put it this way, I just had a cup of bitter coffee just after I ate a scoop of really sweet ice-cream. I hate dreams. I just felt so happy. Then everything slams back in. I just wish I could just say it out here. Even so, I can't. Its so hard trying to translate everything to a point where its hard to read. I just wish you would just say something. All I can say is that its a dream about you.

I'm still counting. 21 days tomorrows.

I'm still quite hit by the culture shock in the class. I'm just not meant for this. I realize that I'm spouting nonsense, but I'm sorry, I'm really confused, really really confused. Maybe I shouldn't blog either. I don't know.

I'm feeling a little empty inside. =(

Thinking of you.

School was kinda more relaxed today I guess. I woke up at eight. Seemingly having 2 nightmares in one night. Gosh. When will these dreams ever stop coming. I hate dreams. Unexplainable, unrealistic and undesirable. I just want a picture of you in my mind when I sleep. To me, that will be a good enough dream I guess.

School was average. CPPA was average. But I realized that I'm pretty slow when it comes to doing the math. Well, the concept of things was easy to grasp, but I hate sums. APChem was like some torture camp. Haha. Well, not exactly. Mr. Lam was like scolding me all the time. Was talking to Qi Ming and we already finished our tutorials and further questions, so Mr. Lam could only scold us for talking in class. Finishing tutorials ahead of lessons rocks. Haha. MIP was fine. Well, I guess it would be interesting if I actually applied all of it into my daily life. No fun just keeping head knowledge.

The Bleach Character, Zaraki Kenpachi, keeps swirling in my mind. By the way, he's my favorite Bleach character. What did hit me about this violent man who loves to fight was his conversations. He said that you will never be able to fight a winning battle if you never gave it your all. True strength lied beneath the reason why you were fighting. If it was fighting for someone else, for morals, for what you think, its like fighting a losing battle. Winning a battle means you must fight for yourself, for what you believe in. Zaraki Kenpachi genuinely loved fighting, and thats why he was so good at it.

Well, I have to start finding what I really love, what I truly desire, before I can win that battle. Meanwhile, I'll keep you up there, deep in my mind.

"When you are fighting, you don't think, he might get seriously injured. You say I'm going to cut him. When you protect someone, you don't think, he might die anytime. You say I'm not going to let him die." - Urahara Kisuke

Of Disappointment and Canceled Classes.

Kinda disappointed with my lecturers, they give me a really bad feeling that they're the irresponsible type. Well, today's classes were shifted here and there, if not canceled. Fridays classes were shifted without us agreeing, and thus, it was a whole mess. Well, it still is a whole mess. Pretty screwed up when I heard it was DCHE 23 that requested for the change of timing for the MIP lecture. I mean, come off it, the lecture is not only for your class, Why are u making the decisions for us?

Siti Rohanah is stepping on the class toes with her English lessons. She better do it right, coz' the class is really good at disliking lecturers. Haha. She just has the High-Class Elevated Status Aura, and she gives us the feeling of a really stuck up person. Well, I think she's not very pleases with our class either. So, the feeling is mutual. Her class is pretty useless for me, given all that Tazneen put in, I had better hit the Distinction for this module.

Practical was a breeze, well, but I better had start working on the Discussion questions too. They had better not be like the Sand Grinding Experiment questions. That one was seriously hard to get. Jeffery Whey canceled Character Development class, when we stepped into the class room. He made us wait roughly 2 hours waiting, and then we all could go home. He said he almost fainted. So much for Character Development. I think he went to Chiong yesterday night. Today Peng. Haha.

Hah, I miss you. Take care okay? Don't over exert yourself. Not good for you.

"Even if I ask you to write a hundred essays and I only pick two and mark them, you still have to do them. So if you're unhappy with my teaching, you can get out of my class, Nick." - Tazzneen

Be grateful if you never had teachers like that. And be grateful, if you ever had teachers like that.