4th Febuary 2010

On coming to this page, I totally forgot what I wanted to write about.

Well, lets start by, "Wow, Jing Ni reads my blog." That's big shock. Didn't know she read. I wonder who else reads, maybe Aaron, coz' of Jing Ni, maybe Hui Min reads my blog. Hui Min, if you're reading this, please forgive my bastard of a friend Cassandra who told you that I thought you were cute. Well, maybe you are cute, but that makes it so hard to look you in the eye and say,"Hi."

I have discovered my best topic in CS Lim's Advanced Physical Chemistry. Solubility Equilibria. Yes. I know how to do it. I think CS Lim is related to CS Lewis coz' they really have powerful monsters in their brain that they set out on to paper, one in the form of monsters in his novels and one in the form of Gibbs-Helmholt's equation in my coming exam paper. They tend to dwell a lot on important but irrelevant stuff as well.

Seriously, "I'm sorry" and "I know I ought to think about it" doesn't impress very well on me as a I was extremely angry with him story.

Yay, more and more people are going to the Dinner and Dance. I hope it'll be like fun. Maybe we can all go to a bar or a club after that and partayy. I'm going to be like Bruce Wayne, come in with plenty of chicks by my side. The 007 in me is smiling already. Its only Karen and Teri, but I'll be glad what-so-ever.

I'm angry with Gillian now. That has stopped abruptly my train of thoughts and thus I shall have to continue some other day.

Valentine's Day Soon.

Valentine's Day is coming soon, maybe I'll give everybody a little something this year! like that thing above. That picture was taken during Christmas Morning. at about 2am.

I was thinking about NTU thing, I went to talk to Candice about it, she said just apply. Application starts today, I think I will be busy applying tomorrow.

On a lighter note, I'm glad to have know nice people like Teri and Karen whose company I've been enjoying these past few weeks. I wonder who will I forget after march.

I've been listening to retro English songs, as influenced by Aaron and Jing Ni, with their total eclipse of the heart thing. Right now there's monotonic sounds coming from my neighbor's house, which I totally cannot stand. GAWD.

Jon Secada's Angle is a nice song.

30th January 2010

Nick's kinda occupied with things, but one notable thing is that today he went high life shopping with Aaron and Jing Ni, and was like a light bulb for 2 hours or so. Firstly, ALDO shoes are quite nice, I don't know if they have like a size 11 1/2 for me or not, but i like this brown shoes with creases. I think it looks nice. Then there's this Bally bag and this Topshop bag that I think is cool, but the Topshop bag is 89 dollars, the Bally bag I didn't bother. The Espirt bag that I really liked is gone too. So sad, when you want to buy it, its already gone.

Who wants to go SPCLS D&D? I think I might actually help 3 table arrange. Closer to the date more and more people are joining. Good sign, it may actually be a good party after all.

Would a girl go with a guy who loves her or a guy that can give her a good life? How about a guy who can give her security and love against a guy who loves her a whole lot? Does it make a difference? In the end, as according to Wendy's sad video, usually the rich get the pretty girls, but thankfully, its not all the time, its just almost all.

What gives?

3.319 is super borderline for NTU, I really hope I can go to NTU, but they say they count 5 semesters results, so even if I study really hard this semester, they won't count it for my current application to NTU, and that means my FYP GPA boost won't go into the 5 semester results, that means that my application letter to NTU will be almost pointless. Sigh. Well, at least there's army.

I want to like go get a lot of money so I don't have to work and can buy all the nice clothing there is that the world has to offer.

29th January 2010

I've been on this page for almost an hour now, and I've been thinking about a shit load of stuff, like why I don't rant when I really need to, and a whole lot of other disgusting, intriguing stuff that I have no idea why I think about them.

I have come to a extremely sad conclusion as of, maybe a whole ten maybe twenty years of my life, that no one knows my favorite color. It became apparent to me when someone asked me if I knew someone else's favorite color. I can just break into the conclusion that no one bothers what color I actually like. My favorite color's actually red, wait, I'm actually not sure about that. WOW, while writing this, Teri actually guessed it. She says its gut feeling.

Which is regrettably so, cause' I think that fat ugly stupid not nice people are creatures or beings that no one cares about, no one misses, and no one takes heed of. But where are your true friends when you need them? I always told myself that friends are the ones that tell you when you're wrong, fat, ugly and stupid at the same time, I hardly see them down here.

My efforts to create a unified class succeeded, but only for a little while, before everything broke down, back to square one. Someone told me that FYP breaks friendships, now I realized that that may actually be true. Counting with my fingers, there's already over five which situations that I already know, much less those that have reached my ears.

I played the role of the asshole in school, when I really wanted to be a soothsayer. Ironically, no one takes my words seriously anyway, anymore.

Would it have been better if I didn't quite DB in year one?

Would it have been better if I devoted my personal life to music?

Would it have been better if I hadn't dated her?

Would it have been better if I didn't kiss her that day?

It kills me, especially the last one, when I think about it. Its stupid to think back, I know, but whats point when you can't see the future? You might as well walk with your back facing the front, coz' you will always be that way. Once bitten, its not only the twice that's shy, its the thrice, quadrice,quince, always, that you stay away from it.

But what if its something you need? What if in the dire situation you really have no other choice? Can you pick it up in the same way it bit you?

You're the thing that bit me, my poison, my one true and only love right now.

The species that don't adapt is doomed to die.

Post-Christmas.

Come to think of it, Christmas went along like any other day, badly. I received one personal present this year. Yay! Apples chocolates and sweets, I think I received a grand total of 3 non-food related presents. Yay!

I expected worse.

I came home to a neatly messed up table, without clothes. I was awfully surprised, and wonder which miracle happened. Then, I opened up my drawers and found that everything was shafted in, UNCATAGORISED. Fricken' disaster.

Yes, I decided that I would be materialistic, because the thought doesn't count, when there isn't any. So what for make everyone else but yourself happy, does it make a difference? Its just like going green: ONE PERSON CANNOT MAKE A DIFFERENCE. Why me?

I don't care, coz' nobody cares.